From Broken Hearts To Shattered Dreams

Friday night @ Loft, KL



I think Michelle looks freaking pretty in this picture..



Its the only picture i took with Michelle all night so im posting it up eventhough we both look a bit..Distorted..Lol..



Grrrrrlfriends!!



Love you with all my hear Ling!!

Awwww..So pwecious!!

I feel so upset that im NOT in the picture!!

We were having a good picture day..

Haha!! I love this picture of them!!

Loft was fun..It was my first time there that night and i'd definitely go back eventhough its not really our kind of crowd..We were probably the only people there below 21..It was only me, Jijam, Ling, Ashvind and Michelle that night coz Manda's in Bangkok, M's in Cheng Mai, Ben couldnt make it and Riam had work to do..But i had fun anyways.. : ) Met a couple of Nizam's pilot friends..And i met a hot guy!! Okay la..I didnt meet him..I saw him..Evs okay..Same thing!! But he was seriously FREAKING hot!! But you know..Nizam had to go and spoil it and tell him i had a boyfriend..Lol! No..That was a joke..I love my boyfriend laaa..And there was this bartender that Michelle thought was hot but i thought he was just okay..My guy was hotter laaa.. : ) Only thing i didnt like about Loft was some of the guys..They kept trying to dance against us and talk to us and there was this one that stared at me and came right up to me and waved..I was like wtf?!? So poor Nizam and Ashvind had to keep watching out for us all night..Oh..And there were these two girls right..Dressed in practically nothing..They work for the club and they're supposed to go up onto the bar and shake their ass for a couple of minutes..And no doubt their bodies were freaking hot and they could dance but i mean..It was a little obscene..I told Ling that Ben would KILL me if i ever dressed like that and Ling looked at me and was like I WOULD KILL YOU!! Lol..You could see their underwear everytime they bent over!! Think Coyote Ugly with less clothes..Yup!! But anyways..We left pretty early..Like around 1.30..But i had fun..Its been awhile since i went clubbing and i cant wait until the next time we all go clubbing again..

Oh..And i stole the first two pictures of Michelle's blog hence the Michelle Phoon at the bottom of the pictures..But i dont think she'll mind.. : )

I just came back from Genting a little while ago coz i went to watch Olivia Newton-john sing but im too lazy to blog and post the pictures now so i'll just do it tomorrow..

Oh and one more thing..

Allen Michael Tracy is homeeeeee!! : )

My Eyes Are Not The First To Cry

If any of you read the papers today, im sure you'd have read about the indian man who was beaten and starved to death by his employers..His employers chained him and locked him in a room and beat him and they didnt feed him..However, he managed to escape and some villagers found him and sent him to hospital..But his body was so malnourished that he passed away today..

I saw his picture in the papers and ohmygod im so traumatised..You could see his bones and he was so skeletal like..It was so scary!! He was literally skin and bones..And there was this pain and fear in his eyes and i cant even describe to you how horrible it was!! I can still see that picture in my head..

What i cant understand is how someone is capable of doing this..The police have arrested a whole family in connection to this whole thing..A father, mother and son..I really really cannot comprehend how ONE WHOLE FAMILY can abuse and mistreat another human being like this..And if im not mistaken, the police are going to charge the three of them with murder because the indian man died..

All i have to say is that it serves them right and i hope that they go to jail for life or get hanged or caned or something..

I mean SERIOUSLY!! How is someone capable of inflicting such pain and misery on another person?!? The poor indian man was so weak that he couldnt eat solid foods and when he was taken to hospital, he was put on a liquid diet..How do you do that to someone?!? How CAN you do that?!?

I just cant understand how someone can abuse another person like this and have a good night's sleep..I mean..You KILLED a guy!! You didnt FEED him!! He came all the way from India to earn a living and support his family and you fucking murdered the man!! You deserve to rott in hell..

I have mixed emotions to him dying..At least his suffering is over..He doesnt have to live in this fucked up world where someone can torture another person like this..But on the other hand..An innocent soul has lost his life because of un-feeling bastards..

They say that we are civilised people..But what those three people did to the indian man was barbaric..

The poor man died a slow, painful death..He was chained like a dog..He was lonely..He was hungry..I can only imagine the pain and suffering he felt..

Words cannot describe how angry i am right now..What is this world coming to?!?

It just makes me so sad..And so angry..And so scared for all the other foreign workers here..

These people..They leave their homes..Their families..Their countries and come and work in a foreign land because they need money..And this is how we treat them..And some of them are as young as 18..How would you feel is you had to leave everything you love and have to do menial jobs in order to support your family?

I really want to do something to make a difference..To help these people..

Im just one insignificant person..But hey..If 300 insignificant people help out..It becomes pretty significant..

So everyone..Please say a prayer for this indian man tonight..And remember..Treat others with respect and never ever look down on someone..Just because she's your maid doesnt mean she doesnt have feelings too..

We So Fresh

Conversation between me and Ben

KimBen

Call me back in 2 minutes kay..
*makes some unsatisfied noise* Okay..Text me..
No! Just call me in two minutes!
*makes another unsatisfied noise* Why cant you just text me? I'll get confused! Its damn difficult to count!
What?!? Its just two minutes!! 1! 2!
Okay fine! Its 9.28 now..I'll call you at 9.30..
God! That wasnt so difficult right?!? Its just ONE and TWO!
Okay!! Faster go!! Its gonna be 9.39 and then i'll be all confused!!
*speechless*
Okay bye!!

Wtf right?!? I know!! I was like ?!?!?!? And just so you know..He DIDNT call me back in two minutes..

Oh..And for people who read my blog regularly..You'd probably remember this post where i posted a picture of this HUUUUUUGE bruise on my leg..Well..I have HUUUUUUGE bruiseS on my arms now thanks to Chung Ru Dee and her cradles!!

No laaa..Its not really Ru Dee's fault..Its just that i bruise really REALLY easily..

Oh..And you should go check out the Ciara - Like A Boy video..I think its a really really good video..Its shot in black and white and the way its done is really good..And the dancing is really good too..Its not the usual booty-shaking-minimal-clothes kind of dancing you usually see in hip hop videos..And also go watch the Elvis vs JXL - A Little Less Conversation..The idea behind the whole video is really cool..

And just in case any of you were wondering..I dont have any other pictures of the other houses performing on open day coz my camera ran out of battery..

Oh!! And you know!! Tomorrow is the FIRST holiday we've had in AGES and i have to go back to school for HSM practice..The THINGS i do!!

So yes..Im off to watch CSI which im REALLY looking forward too coz i havent been able to watch tv AT ALL this past two weeks and i dont even know whats happening on ANTM and Amazing Race All-Stars which SUCKS!!

So yeah..Here's a picture of me and Ben which i took just before the Kanye concert and i love this picture and i swear to God that Ben isnt posing!! It really IS candid!! Awwww..Love you sweetiepie.. : )

Coz We'll Make It Through

The past two weeks have been a complete blurr or performances and lots and LOTS of practices for the performances..

On Thursday, half of the school team cheerleaders performed the last song (We're All In This Together) of High School Musical at the KL Hilton for Disney..Apparently, it was AMAZING so i guess that whole week of practicing from 8am-5pm worked!! And we've already been asked by a bajillion other people to perform at their functions..As of today..We're performing for PICO, KFC, Telekom and The Ministy of Education..

I didnt go to class for a WEEK coz of High School Musical practice!! And i missed SO much!! They finished reading Zorba the Greek and started reading a new book while i was gone!

I missed classes on Friday AGAIN coz we had rehearsals for Open Day which was on Saturday and i learned the whole red house cheer routine in ONE day..I kinda screwed up a bit laaaa..But it was one day okaaaaaay!!

Open day wassss..Open day..Lol..Nothing special laaa..But everyone was saying how the HSM (High School Musical) performance was the BOMB! : DD So that made me really happy!! We put ALOT of work into it!! Like..Alot!

Yesterday..We (school team cheerleaders) went for a cheerleading clinic held by the Rangsit cheerleaders at this sports school in KL..We only got back to school at like 9.30 and today we had cheer until 7..

So i've had the most action packed two weeks EVER and im so exhausted and i havent been getting enough sleep and im SO looking forward to the long weekend we're going to have!!

So needless to say..I've barely seen my boyfriend/bestfriends and i miss all of them like CRAZY!!

Howeverrrr..Nizam DID have a barbecue sometime last week which was good eventhough we were only there for a little while..Oh..And i also went for the MNG 10th anniversary fashion show and all i have to say is Carmen Soo is freaking gorgeous!! And so is Amber Chia..Oh..And the MNG summer collection is freaking awesome!!

You know right..It doesnt feel like im in college at all..It seriously feels like im still in school..I've been so preoccupied with school stuff that i barely have time to breathe!!

You know..I LOVE perfoming with all my heart but im getting SO tired of having to practice every day..Get up super early..Put on makeup etc etc..But if im completely honest..I would much rather be doing all that than not doing it at all..

Anyways!! Picturs from Open Day, HSM rehearsals, Speedzone, Kanye and Nizam's barbecue!! I dont have any photos of the MNG fashion show coz i forgot to bring a camera which was such a shame coz i could've taken some AMAZING pictures!! And i also forgot to bring my camera for the actual HSM performance but Nariza is supposed to send me all the pictures so i'll post them up when i get them!!

For now..Enjoy!!



Yellow house cheerleaders doing Shake..



Red house cheer last stunt..



Thats me screwing up..See..My cartwheel is half a second slower than everyone else's!!



I think this is a cool picture!! Thats us doing the He Said, She Said dance..

Our leggy stunt..I have no idea what its called!! Lol..

Sarahhhhh!!

Thats my teacher..Yes..He looks like a student..I know..

Hi Nizam honey..

I absolutely LOVE this picture!! Totally candid and Manda looks gorgeous!!

I missed you Zheng!!

My boys.. : )

I think i look a little weird here but Manda looks really good so whatever laaa!

I wonder what we're all laughing about!!!

Thats what we (HSM cast) wore for the performance..

Swish!!

SmellieMellieBellie!!

How low can YOU go??

Thats Ms Foo telling them that "YOU HAVE TO GO LOWER!!"

Look at Pui Yi!!!

Is this not like a SUPER cool shot?!?

Awwww..Dont Carmen and Ru Dee Pie look so cute hugging each other!!

<3<3<3<3

The half empty mosh pit at Kanye..

I think i look a lil odd here too but M and Ling look freaking gorgeous so up it goes!!

Mandaaaaaa!! : (

Love love love Riam's top!!

I TRIED to get everyone in..But seeing as to how me and Ling just have this talent for ALWAYS being in the picture..We're the only ones that are REALLY in the picture..Lol..

You have NO idea how hard it was to take a steady shot of him because everyone was freaking pushing me and moving and yeah..But it turned out pretty good yeah??

Lol..Sanjiv..Im sorry!! But i LOVE this picture of me and Ben!!

And if this post seems a little..Disjointed (sp?!?) or weird or like it doesnt flow..Im sorry but my butt is starting to hurt and im so tired of sitting on this chair because it took my FREAKING long to edit/resize all the pictures and i need to go shower anyway so bye ya'lll!!

I Know Coz Im Living The Same Lie

I..Have a Business and Spanish test tomorrow and i have done absolutely nothing..Ohmyyy..But evs laaa..I didnt do a lick of work this whole weekend and Jonathan's panties are gonna be so knotted and twisted and he'll probably hate me even more..

Oh..But you know right..I just found out that its not good to wash your hair with the same shampoo..I really dont know why..Something about..Yeah..I cant remember..So now i use TWO shampoos!! Yes laaa..I believe everything people tell me okay!! Im such a sucker..But actually..I've heard it more than once..

Oh..And you all should try and go to this website Its basically Pictionary..Online! Its so freaking fun and so freaking addictive!! Seriously!! Just go and try it out..

ANTM, Amazing Race AND CSI tomorrow!! Yayy yayy!!

Ewwww..Im such a tv nerdddd!! Lol..

Oh, and right..I went grocery shopping with my mum today..And spent 500 bucks..Lol..And i saw Riza there!! Hi Riza!!

And my ballet exam is on Tuesday..Oh Lordyy..

AND!! Im performing for Disney Channel..Lol!!!!!! Well..Not me laaa..Like..The cheerleaders..We're performing the last song/dance to High School Musical and the song is stuck in my head and its really annoying coz its all "WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER, ONCE WE KNOW LALALALA" So im gonna listen to Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne again and again until that stupid High School Musical song gets UN-stuck from my head!! And shut up..I like Avril Lavigne..

I used to think that Disney Channel was the coolest thing EVER!! But that was when i was in like Standard 5 (I was only 10 in Standard 5 okay!) and back then..My dream was to be on Disney Channel like Hilary Duff and now i get to be on Disney..When im 17..Lol..So im not as..Thrilled as you'd think i would be..

This week is gonna be CRAZY for me..High School Musical practice tomorrow from 12-4..Red house cheer from4-6..Tuesday ballet exam from 9-10..Recording at KDU college..School team cheer from 4-7..Wednesday High School Musical performance/recording..MNG fashion show..Thursday High School Musical performance/recording..And i have to go for classes AND complete my assignments too!

And you know..My brother wants to go for Good Charlotte..But im not really a fan..So i havent decided if im going or not..But even if i dont go, Ben can take Bryan so its okay.. : )

God, please help me and everyone pray that i dont have a breakdown..Off i go now to catch some ZZZZZ's..We all know i need it..Lol! I got that from a book!!

Update and pictures on Speedzone/Kanye soon!! (I know im late but evs okayyy!)

Laughing It Up As You Pretend

The other day, someone asked me a very "important" question..The kind of question which makes you look at people and go "i wonder if..."

Someone asked me if i was a virgin..

So i said yes i was..And then, the person said "oh really? you dont LOOK like a virgin" So i said "what do you mean i dont LOOK like a virgin?" And then the person said "you know..you party and club and smoke and your boyfriend"

So okay..Basically..Conclusion is that because i like to have a good time and go clubbing with my friends and i have a boyfriend, it means im not a virgin..

Where is the logic behind that?!?

And what does a virgin look like?

How can you tell if someone's a virgin just by looking at them?

And actually..What does it matter if a person is a virgin or not??

Its his or her body and what he/she does with it should be no business of other people!! Who cares if a girl sleeps around? Why do we need to call her a slut? Its HER body and as long as she's not hurting anybody, why does it matter whether she sleeps with 1 guy or 10?!?

And why is it that when a girl sleeps around, she's called a slut..When a GUY sleeps around..He's a playa!!

Where is the logic behind THAT?!?

I think that sex is something that should be shared between two people who are in love..But that doesnt neccesarily mean that i have to be married to have sex! I can be in love and be NOT married! And why should it matter to other people if i have sex or not?!? Its MY prerogative!! And if i make a mistake, IM the one who has to live with it, not you!

So hey, you know..The next time you look at a girl and think she's a slut coz of the way she LOOKS, think again before you judge..Coz looks CAN be misleading..

One good example?? Me and all my "party-loving" friends are all virgins.. : ) But that cant be right!! We dont LOOK like virgins!!

Well, i dont look like i have a black belt in taekwando either..

Love Is A Marathon

This weekend is gonna be one hell of a weekend..Im going for that BMW pit lane thing at KLCC with Aaron tomorrow, and before that i have ballet and then after the BMW thing im going for the Speedzone rave at KL Tower and then on Sunday i have Kanye West Touch The Sky Tour baybeeee!! :D

So dont expect any updates for the next few days ya'll!! :p

I didnt go to school today..Instead, i went to Hartamas for breakfast with Ben..And then he snet me home and went to college and i studied my Chem and then he picked me up again and we went to his place and i FINALLY got to meet Sabrina (his sister) who is so super nice and she'll be going for the rave too! Yay!

Cant wait for the weekend to start!!

Although actually right, its kinda started already! Lol..

Anyways..I dont know why my computer is lagging and its getting annoying so no pictures and yaokaybye..

Lolita

*said in a Tyra-esque voice* Last night..On America's Next Top Model..

Haha! That was so funny!! : p

ANYWAYS!! Brooke got sent home which i think is TOTALLY unfair coz Jaeda SO should have gone home coz she SUCKS and she annoys me and i dont think Eugena is that good either..But poor Brooke..She got sent home on the night of her graduation..So she missed her high school graduation only to get sent home..Poor girl..But actually right, i thought her photo was pretty good..Anchal had a really good photo this week..And so did Melrose..Personally, i think Jaeda's photo was the worst this week..I dont know la..I dont think she deserves to be there..Okay evs..So guess who was a special guest this week??

DITA VON TEESE!!



I think she is FREAKING hot!!

And here's a photo in tribute to Brooke coz she SO should have stayed..And this is her BEFORE the makeover..She looks so much better with dark hair, dont you think??



In the Amazing Race All-Stars, Joe and Bill got sent home..But to their credit..They ran an awesome race and Charla and Mirna still annoy the shite out of me..But im totally supporting Dustin and Kandice..I think they totally deserve to win just coz they're so damn nice and so sporting..



Bye Joe and Bill..



No prizes for guessing who got sent home from American Idol last week..I didnt manage to watch the whole show but i watched his song and he was kinda bad..Im pretty suprised Sanjaya has made it this far though!! But i think he's funny..He's got the X-factor laaa..But he's really bad..Lol..

Anyways!! I shouldnt be here right now coz i have assignment and a boyfriend to attend to, so bye you guys!!

Anddd..I've started to link people so if i havent linked you, leave me a comment with your blog URL and i'll link you kay??

Bye!

Diamond Necklaces and Ruby Rings

Okay..So i havent blogged in a while coz i've been so busy..I have come to the conclusion that there are not enough hours in the day..But its okay..I like being busy and having tonnes of things to do..I hate just sitting down doing nothing..It drives me crazy..Im weird..I know..

Anyways!! Lets get to why im blogging..



My dearest Nizam is leaving me (us) to Melaka tomorrow..God knows what i am going to do without him..He's the one that keeps me level headed when i fight with Ben..He's the one who picks me up no matter where i am or what time it is..He's the one who calls me at the most random times and takes me to Hartamas..He's the one that laughs at Riam with me..He's the one (and Ben) that takes care of me when we club..He's the one who's there whenever i need him..He's the one who makes me feel better when im down..He's the one who's managed to convince himself that me, Riam, M, Ling and Manda are the hottest girls on the face of the earth..He's the one who laughs like an IDIOT with my boyfriend over things that are not funny and makes me laugh..He's the one that sings along to gay music when we're in the car..He's just the one..

All i have to say is that Nizam has spoiled me to death and im seriously gonna feel so lost without him..He gives me everything i want and he's never said no to me..Ever!! Even when i ask him to do the craziest things! There are very few guys out there like him and i feel so freaking lucky to be able to say that he's my bestfriend.. : ) Andddd..I know im his bestfriend too and that he loves me like CRAZY!! So dont believe him if you ask him if he loves me and he denies it coz he's trying to be "macho" (he and Ben have this thing about being "macho") Trust me..He loves me with all his heart!!

Im going to miss all the times we have in the car when you and Ben are being stupid and im laughing/yelling at the both of you..And im ALSO going to miss telling you not to smoke coz i dont want you to die/kill me of lung cancer..I know you'll be back on weekends but im gonna miss you like CRAZY!!

Love you with all my heart Nizam darling..And just like no one will ever replace me..No one could ever replace you either..You speeeciaaaal laa..And you know i need you..

So have fun at flying school Jijam!! I'll talk to you on the phone later and i bet you're damn happy that you have ONE WHOLE POST just to yourself..Coz i KNOW you only read our posts if you/your picture is in it..

And Nizam honey, you suck at April fools jokes..